Monday, 19 April 2010

Oh No Mojo, Where Did You Go?

I have been without my mojo for a few days now and I'm beginning to miss it terribly.

It all started when I discovered yet another example of how someone I know through my business had betrayed me. First I was angry (how dare they), then I was sad (I hate it when people disappoint me) and then I felt numb.

I decided I could do one of three things - fight back, give up or sleep on it. All of the advice I was given was the former - "don't let the bastards get you down", "stay strong", "be better" and yes, of course, that's the positive, brave thing to do. But in truth it has made me question whether I'm as strong as I'd like to be.

I hate confrontation of any kind and avoid it at all costs. This is why many of the problems I have had with friends and family members have remained unresolved and locked away. So to find more unpleasant, potentially confrontational situations in my business life is unnerving and unwelcome.

The petulant child in me wanted to stamp my foot, throw my toys out of the pram and give up. But even I know that is an overreaction. So I decided "when in doubt, do nowt". So I sent my mojo on an impromptu mini-break while I soaked up the sunshine, made myself busy in the garden, watched films, and enjoyed the girls' last days of the school holidays.

This week though things need to get back to normal - my eldest child goes back to school and my partner goes back at work. So it's time for me to slot back into 'work mode'. But my mojo has yet to make a reappearance. So, just in case you see or hear from them, can you pass on a message:

"I miss you and I want you to come home. I know we can work through this and hopefully be the stronger for it. Just please, please come home - we have some important decisions to make."

3 comments:

TheMadHouse said...

I really hate that people just can not be trusted. I hope you find it and manage those decisions

helenlindop said...

So sorry that people keep making life difficult for you and your business, especially when you work so damned hard to support other people. Chin up, lots of us love what you do and really appreciate the effort you put in to it.

@porridgebrain said...

So sorry that you're going through a rough patch. In my experience time is the best medicine - maybe you just need a little more. Sunshine, films and time in the garden seem like good ideas to me. I prescribe lots more, and some hugs from me too.

Your mojo will be back soon, I'm sure of it. And until then you have good friends who DO appreciate you who I'm sure will be patient, and keep you feeling loved and valued, until it does x

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